Snow falling on cedars

I didn't realize we can watch free movies throught comcast ondemand. I just finished watch the movie, Snow Falling on Cedars. When the movie first came out, I really wanted to watch. (That Korean guy from 'Lost' is it) Oh my, it was one of the worst movies ever. The movie seemed so long and dry. They try to make it artsy but didn't work. It was mostly dark and I didn't feel for the characters. I did start the book long time ago but never finished it. I guess I won't be reading that book.

trading spaces

The reason I read multiple books at the same is because sometimes I can't find the book and I'm too lazy to get it. So I leave one in the living room, one downstairs, one in the bedroom etc...
I wish I was one of those people who really do read multiple books.

I have abandoned all the other books and I finished reading The Kite Runner. I was up late crying and reading. Every time I read "for you, thousand times over", I sob.

This past week, 'Trading Spaces' were stationed in front of our house in the parking lot of the elementary school. I was so into that show before and now it's totally overrated. Still I got all excited. Hoping to see some familiar faces, I kept looking out the window. Couldn't see much. At first, I thought one of our neighbors were in the show but that wasn't the case.



Finally I'm fine and A is feeling better from getting sick. We are planning to visit Boston this coming Thursday. Hopefully drive won't be that bad. I'm excited to see my sister's place and to just hang out.

summer

i can't believe it's almost August! I don't want the summer to be over so soon. we didn't do much yet. we didn't even take A to the shore or anything. what about my dutch wonderland season pass? I plan to do so much in the beginning of the summer but end up not doing much at the end of the summer. One thing I've been doing is take A to library story hours. She quietly watches everything and everyone and claps at the end of each book. really cute:)

So I've been hanging out with A and it's fun. I'm learning lots of things too; learning nursery rhymes and finding out that Croaky from Jojo's Circus is Jewish and 'Olivia' also has a baby brother named William. :) I'm gonna miss hanging out with A when the school starts.

more old pictures

J and S's wedding: C, P, P and me

J and S's wedding at Crystal Tea Room: P and me

A playing outside

A playing with blocks

At C's birthday party

At C's birthday party: A playing with a ball

At Dutchland: A with her second cousins from Korea

At Dutchland: HA HA

At Dutchland: A didn't like it much

Ah-i-go

here I go again. I was feeling better from my surgery and what do I do next? I hurt my back. We were hoping to visit boston this weekend. forget that. I can't stand up straight. hard for me to walk. I keep remembering this woman with a half a body on discovery channel. It's amazing how she gave birth to a normal boy and she does everything on her own. She basically only has her upper part of her body. Her arms are like her legs. Compared to this, what I'm going through is nothing. However, it was a challenge to take care of A. She was very cooperative though. She can climb anywhere like a monkey so I didn't have to carry her. She climbs everywhere on her own nowadays. Highchair, chair, table, sofa, bed etc... anyways, A is at my mother-in-law today so I can rest(well, not really. I gotta go to school to meet someone). It will take me a while to be normal again. I do have a back problem so I have to be careful and exercise. I'm really worried about the future. I can't live like this. I don't want to be like those grandmas who walk 90 degrees bent over. I do have to make a drastic change. exercise and eat right... so hard to do...

Monday was P's birthday. A said "Happy Birthday" to him and he was so excited. She didn't exactly said Happy birthday. more like "Happy um-day". So cute. We should record things.

I finished reading 'the Devil wears Prada'. it was okay. I really want to see the movie though.
I started 'the Kite Runner' and still reading 'Life of Pi' and "Freakonomics". I'm hoping to read lots of books this summer. We'll see...

old pictures

Four

Tagged by KRL and JSK

1. Four Jobs
a. Library worker
b. Actuarial Associate
c. Math Teacher
d. Mother

2. Four Things I Wish I Had Done Earlier in My Life
a. studied more in high school and college
b. learned to play piano
c. kept up with Korean
d. learn to write, listen and speak better English

3. Four places I've lived
a. Seoul, Korea
b. Cresskill, NJ
c. Florence, SC
d. Fort Lee, NJ

4. Four countries I've been to
a. Korea
b. USA
c. Canada
d. Mexico(the list is sad)

5. Four Countries I'd like to Visit
a. Fiji
b. Netherlands
c. France
d. Japan

6. Four of my Favorite Dishes
a. All Korean food
b. Fried Chicken
c. Pasta
d. Everything else

7. Four sites I visit Daily
a. Hotmail
b. Gmail
c. work email
d. disney.go.com

8. Four Software Applications I Can't Live without( I can live without them)
a. internet applications
b. MS Word
c. MS Excel
d. Adobe photoshop

9. Four Things I'll Never Forget
a. coming to America( how I thought we were going to live in a house like Laura Ingalls')
b. having pizza for the first time( I thought it was heavenly)
c. getting sick before our honeymoon ( both of us)
d. giving birth to ASL ( I was so surprised that I was brave!- I didn't cry)

10. I Tag...
I think everyone I know who has a blog's been tagged.. anyone else?

my umma part 2

Why was I so mean to the only person who loves me no matter what? I was mad at my mom because I was being selfish. I'm sorry, umma. I'm really ashamed to even call her. I hurt her so much. I don't know how to say things nicely. it's gonna to take a long time for me to forgive myself. I'm sure my mom will brush off and say it's okay.

Because of my surgery, my mom came over to help out. She was here for a week. She always goes crazy cooking stuff for me. It was a minor surgery and I was doing fine. I don't know what it is with my mom, I just get mean and annoyed. I said some mean stuff to her and I so regret it.

My mom never buys nice things for herself. She always sacrifice herself(too much that's why i get so mad) for us. She really has no fashion sense but she's okay with that(which drives me crazy sometimes) Yes, she nags because she loves us. She mixed up our names all the time. She works too hard. She makes great Korean food and other mysterious food that I don't eat. She prays constantly. She's excellent in memorizing people's phone numbers. She's not like other moms that I know. She loves me so much.

I always do this. I get really mean and I feel so bad that I get depressed. I'm such a coward. I'll give it a couple of days, then I'll call her...

I prayed that I would be kind to her while she was here. Well, didn't work. I really need to pray more... Please pray for me that I may pray...

me minus one organ

thank you all for your prayers. i'm doing fine. amanda is upset when i can't hold her but she's doing fine with her daddy and grandma.

i have one slit in the center under my breast bones, two small holes on the side and my button has a big hole. i feel fine eating and i don't have much pain.

I watched march of the penguins in my bed yesterday. what a noble creature!!! excellent. two thumbs up!