surgery

i'm finally getting my gallbladder removed on 6/30. PL took the day off and my mom will help out with AL. I'm not nervous about the surgery but i'm more worried about taking care of AL. The surgery is not major but I won't be able to hold her and she'll be upset about that.

I'm pretty excited that I'll be able to eat regular food. I lost alot of weight which is good but i can't eat anything nowadays. I do have to be careful about my diet and exercise after my surgery though. I don't want to go back to the way I was eating. I used to eat fast food secretly and eat so much junk. you would be so grossed out if you knew.

I'm so tired from hanging out with AL. I don't even watch tv at night much bc i'm so tired. i read one book so far. The curious incident of the dog in the night-time....KRL, The author does a great job describing how an autistic boy views this world. I have a greater appreciation for my emotions and how I can understand other people's emotions. I also love the math problems and the proof in the book. now, I'm reading THE BIRD ARTIST by Howard Norman.

summer break day 3

i'm exhausted!!!

day one: I had a meeting with a student at 10. my mother-in law went to Korea so I took amanda with me. She pooped during the conference and she refused to sit anywhere but my lap.
It is so much more tiring to stay home so we went to the mall. we had lunch, played on kiddy rides and shopped. she slept while I shopped. of couse, I didn't really buy much.

day two: I had ultrasound appointment for my gallstones. I figure my father-in-law can take care of her for a couple of hours. thank goodness, ASL slept most of time but FIL was pretty nervous about taking care of her all by himself. We had lunch there and somehow it was time for ASL's bedtime. From 10 to 4, I could not sleep because my stomach was hurting so much. I'm definitely getting the surgery done... meeting with surgeon on monday.

day three: training from 9 to 3 at school. my coworkers daughters babysat. I felt bad because I don't think I gave them enough. I asked them how much they charge but their mom said they'll do it for free. I don't know what people charge now. Still i feel bad. ASL would not have have survived with her pacifier and jojo dvd. I gotta get rid of her pacifier soon but I'm afraid of her reaction. she's sleeping right now. she's not used to seeing strangers. she's so used to my mother-in-law and she gets really upset. she was hysterically crying at the church nursery on sunday. I need to get her out more often. I better waker ASL up so she can sleep tonight.